here i am, giving you advice when all i can think about is that very night we spent together looking at the stars. i dont think you realise it but its all i ever think about nowadays.

in some ways, i'm big on the whole romantic crap. but in all the other ways, i just want to feel happy. that day, literally on the top of the world, i felt happy. like you were my knight in shining armour, here to sweep me off my feet. sweep me off my feet, you did. and for that one day, i let all my inhibitions out the window. the way you were careful with me, how the little things seemed to matter.. it overwhelmed me.



its ALWAYS the little things that matter, always the little things that you do...not some big dinner once in 10 yrs. its the little things that matter, maybe now i hope you'll get that. its strange how both of us see our frens more often than we see each other. thats just life, holding on to life rafts that help us float along...



You were like coming up for fresh air. It's like I was drowning and you saved me. That's all I know.

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone.

i guess it’s O.K. to turn into a puddle of goo since X has an exponential exorbitant melt factor.
Imperfect, but perfect- you don’t know exactly why.
just rmb that everything has to be dealt with eventually
I’m behind you so long as this is what you want <3

strangely enough, those words from my best friend, seem so damn comforting to me now. because i know that she will always support me in whatever i do, no matter how nonsensical or irrational it seems. she trusts that i know what i want. it's enough. :) met xuan that day, and it turned out to be full of laughter! listening to leann rimes while taking a crap in side-by-side cubicles, and gossiping all the way. its times like these that make me feel appreciative..

just for that moment in time when you feel the thrill, you forsake everything else, including your sanity. goes the same for everybody.

on a sidenote, i'm meeting TERENCE PANG on thurs! have not seen him since 8 yrs ago, when we were back in secondary school and squashing all the time. such a long time huh. and i also realised many many people are studying overseas, scholarship or not.


its strange how people change.

first part of the year saw me going down to NUS for a few times, checking out the squash scene. Kinda long to be part of it but yet I realised that I prefer teaching in my spare time. And I became a HUGE Timbre fan! I've been bringing tons of frens there cos of the AWESOME music!
Anderson's Homecoming was good cos my class probably had the highest turnout! 11 :)
everything's so funny when they're around!

Mao came back for a while, and we Timbred SOOOOOOO much la! 3 times in a week was the record. Managed to catch Yong Hong too for a movie, been ages since I saw that guy.. Had my first Aston's meal during Benny's birthday celebration. Interestingly, bumped into Ivan too after so many years, was really glad to see him again :)
XiaoYuan was back in sg for hols and we did this whole anderson squash thingy. time flew by so fast, and i really missed those days...not the torturing during trainin mind you.

V'day felt kinda wasted to me, cos I put in quite a lot of effort for a surprise, which turned out to be redundant in the end. However, I spent half the day teaching, which was really awesome.
Met Yipeng for a few times too, we were lookin for guide books, or rather, he was helping me look... Timbre with NYP squashers and other frens was damn good la, cos we've not seen each other for ages too.

AH YES, MAMBO with Hongs and Ade and her frens! Bumped into Albert Ng, and..PUAY SENG. hahahaah, 7 years since I've seen him! The last time was Fun-O-Rama back in his ACJC days.. God, we caught up on so much when we met up for Watchmen and lunch.. Finally got to know Hazel's beau and they make a really sweet couple.

And on a side note, Liquid Kitchen along Cheong Chin Nam Road closed down. So Tong, Simon and I settled on Bojangles... Goodfellas at the Mosaic Music Festival was awesome! The 3 guitarists absolutely blew me away, esp Athif when he got off the stage and into the audience...

Finally got to meet Xuan and Joshua during Eusoff Hall's dance production. It was hilarious, and I really enjoyed myself! I had Cynthia TAN entertaining me on my left. was awfully glad to see her again!

Daniel's bash at Ritz-Carlton was nice though, Jap dinner and slacked around in his room til the next day. Supper, late night chats, and scandalous photos....

this year marked a different side of me. i'm not thinkin twice and i dont regret whatever i do. there were many mistakes that were too fun to make once. nothing can justify them though, no matter what ppl say. i should be feeling awful and all, but the thing is i don't. i dont know what to make of myself nowadays..

there's just a certain thrill in doing something you know is wrong, and the high you get when you do it..it makes you lose your senses. there's not a care in e world for you to worry about.

i've been demanding so little in my r/ship previously that now i dont ask for anything anymore. is that justified? and what are expectations? i think i need someone to tell me. cos i've lost sight of mine.

Did you know when you go it's the perfect ending
To the bad day I was just beginning
When you go all I know is you're my favourite mistake

my goodness, i have not felt so relaxed for such a lonnnngggg time!
what with sleeping and waking up late, nothing to worry about, concerned about work? nahh...


this lifestyle feels soo good....

2008 ended on a good note, and starting on an even BETTER note...

i think its rather strange that i'm starting to feel really homely, like seriously REALLY homely.

attica 3 weeks ago was rather good! music was superb, company was even better!
there were tons of SPGs there though..
caught 007 with gerald and simon few weeks back
Annual Prize Giving at The Rock in Suntec 2 weeks ago, went extremely well!
i was still experiencing the high from the event for a few days after that...hahaha
i was surprised to see that Mr Teo Ser Luck was pretty young!
met sean at holland v at night to catch up since he was headin to KL the next morning.

the next week saw me at zirca with some frens, and met alot of new people. zirca was alright, played a lot of strange music though...
dear brought me to jb to have dinner and we caught Ip Man too, BRILLIANT movie may i add!
squashed on sunday with YURAN! haven't seen him for YEARS LA. bumped into tons of ppl, john huiting mubin dingyong and other squashers. the jap place opposite isn't too bad!

went for church on christmas eve, loved the whole christmassy feel especially in church. sang carols, prayed for people precious to us and just had loads of fun.
slept over at xuan's and headed to church again the next morning, orchard after that with sharmaine xuan and jane. we were totally off bcos of the ATROCIOUS CROWD and tiredness. kfc definitely perked us up. we managed to get some stuff though!

being there in body and spirit made me feel so at home. all the people whom i've met over the years there, it was as though i was one of them, it was as though i have known them for years.

surprise of the year: Ying Wen! he lost SO MUCH WEIGHTTTTT!!!!!!
damn, i need to learn from him already!


its strange how it doesn't matter so much to me anymore.


I will never be the same again,
I can never return, I've closed the door.
I will walk apart, I'll run the race
And I will never be the same again.

lol i was at facebook just now, and i suddenly remembered my bf saying that its a total waste of time...but i realised there are so many ppl that i've managed to contact due to facebook!
AND THEN I REMEMBERED...he reads xiaxue's blog. which i think is a total waste of time!
of all ppl, my cynical bf, reading xiaxue.
i have no idea whether he still reads it now, actually i have no idea about anything. which makes me feel damn useless.

seriously, i was at NUS sports hall that day. Once in dunno how freaking long, and pgp is like how near?! ohhh and i remembered so many of my pri sch classmates are in NUS too. currently mugging their butts off!

Tong says that its bull, and at the back of my mind, it keeps nagging at me. and i know that Tong always says it as it is.. oh well.

the one time when i needed you, all i got was an engaged tone. i guess i have to queue up then, just to hear your voice, or wait for your call. hopefully it comes soon, cos my thread's breaking.
just 10 mins, even 5.
and i'm gonna start singing avril lavigne...'is it too much that i'm askin for'

thank you, to the person who actually dropped everything he was doing, and immediately called to make sure i was fine. even though he was supposed to be sleeping.. thanks man :)

oohh mao's coming back to sg SOON! cant wait cant wait cant wait!

pretty busy preparing for annual prize givin ceremony at The Rock in Suntec, gotta dress nicely! Mr Gan's gonna have night class again at the centre, been quite a while since I last saw him!

Had dinner and drinks with Tong at Bukit Timah again last night, and pooled. i'm really quite horrible at pool now.. hahaha i remember how serious an activity it was for all of us back then!

i hope the chiang mai trip falls through, cos i'll be with my favourite people!

PSLE results were quite good actually! It was a flurry of excitement for the teachers that day, finding out who scored what..who's gonna be applyin for what school..
and i realised i'm emotionally involved, maybe it's just me.

watched City of Angels the previous day, and it was surprisingly good! never been a big fan of Nicolas Cage, and doubted his chemistry with Meg Ryan. but he was really earnest and the whole show was really really great. Amazing soundtrack to boot! never knew what the song Iris was about until I watched it..

And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.


Cassiel: If you knew what was going to happen, would you still have done it? Was it worth it?
Seth: I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it. One.


It's good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose.


the thing i'm most afraid of?
that you'll stop needing me.

i really must blog about Timbre!!
was there with xuan cos i'm crazy about the Goodfellas and i wanted to spread the lurrveee.
there was cheap entertainment in the end though. 2 half naked guys saboed to dance on stage which was actually HILARIOUS!
we talked about sooo many things, as usual, we NEVER seem to run out of things to say.

i loveyou bestie for everythinn too :D (and yes WE know who has the nicest eyes huh)
definitely not ROBERT! HAHA!

the band was awesome, as usual, wonderin when i'll get bored of them though.
the way they started off the first set was superb cos they played Queen's Under Pressure!!!
Ade dedicated Hinder's Lips of an Angel for me tooo!
thanks BABE muahs.
omg the zuobo guy really sang the song very very well, very sexy tone and everything.
and of cors, i must mention the underdog. the floppy-haired guitarist. hahaa.

so it was quite an eventful week, celebrated my nephew's first birthday at Hot Stones in Clarke Quay. GOOD FOOD i must say!
we grilled our own raw meat on a slab of stone which was placed in the oven beforehand. interestin stuff! although grilled salmon will NEVER taste as good as raw salmon!

surprised hongyu at her place last night, soooo glad she liked it man!
happy birthday again babe!

meetin xuan on thurs again, and hopefully cherps during the weekend though.
and i am beginning tuition AGAIN.
just when i thought i could rest since the PSLE and O lvls are over and done with....


MAO 16 more days!!! GET UR BUTT BACK IN SG NOW!!!!
:D